one of the gifts, but also one of the cruel realities of life is that you have to live it, right now. there is no backtracking, there are no re-dos. while there are second chances, one can never completely erase what has been done, inhale back words that have been said.
sometimes i wish, so desperately, to be able to go back in time that it takes my breath away. i click through old photos, read through old journal entries, and try and grasp on to those moments again. and although they’re within reach…they’ll never be the same. there’s a coating of sadness, of distance and displacement, that makes them slippery, tough to hang on to.
at the end of the day, you need to just breathe, accept that things are as they are right now for a reason. you can’t step back in time and alter things or bring them with you into the present. to be your best self now, you need to stay in it. stay here, be present, and learn and grow.
a lot of the time it sucks. but this too shall pass.