becoming infinite

always learning. always growing. always lifting heavy things.

tides will change.


my running joke with close friends, beginning around the middle of may, is that 2012 owes me some serious karma.  between january and may i lost my mom, my relationship, even my puppy. by the time my disaster of a surgery came around, i was convinced that i needed to start playing the lotto – karma owed me big time.

at 11am yesterday, i got a phone call from my advisor. during the scheduling and assignment process the department had overlooked a half-TA float position; by 11:01am i went from being a half-funded TA panicking about how i was going to afford my remaining tuition and medical bills, to being a fully-funded TA with no tuition bill outside of a few hundred dollars of mandatory fees.

karma ponied up, to the tune of approximately $16,000 when you factor in the tuition i won’t be paying and the doubling of my stipend. plus, i get to keep my fellowship grant, which should completely pay off my surgery and PT costs.

if somebody offered to give me my old life back – my mom, k, my puppy, even a fully-functional knee – i would say yes in a heartbeat. i would pack my bags and move myself back up north if by some miracle i could get all of that back.

but i can’t. and that’s a reality that tugs at me every single day. i cannot have that life any more.

but this one is a damn good alternative.


Author: jenn

impossible to define; indefinitely impossible. maybe i'll add more here later.

2 thoughts on “tides will change.

  1. I’m catching up on blogs, so I’m sorry I didn’t see/comment sooner but Jenn, this makes my heart sing. I’m so SO happy for you. I can’t think of a single soul who deserves this more. Congratulations love!

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