my running joke with close friends, beginning around the middle of may, is that 2012 owes me some serious karma. between january and may i lost my mom, my relationship, even my puppy. by the time my disaster of a surgery came around, i was convinced that i needed to start playing the lotto – karma owed me big time.
at 11am yesterday, i got a phone call from my advisor. during the scheduling and assignment process the department had overlooked a half-TA float position; by 11:01am i went from being a half-funded TA panicking about how i was going to afford my remaining tuition and medical bills, to being a fully-funded TA with no tuition bill outside of a few hundred dollars of mandatory fees.
karma ponied up, to the tune of approximately $16,000 when you factor in the tuition i won’t be paying and the doubling of my stipend. plus, i get to keep my fellowship grant, which should completely pay off my surgery and PT costs.
if somebody offered to give me my old life back – my mom, k, my puppy, even a fully-functional knee – i would say yes in a heartbeat. i would pack my bags and move myself back up north if by some miracle i could get all of that back.
but i can’t. and that’s a reality that tugs at me every single day. i cannot have that life any more.
but this one is a damn good alternative.