becoming infinite

always learning. always growing. always lifting heavy things.

tides will change.

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my running joke with close friends, beginning around the middle of may, is that 2012 owes me some serious karma.  between january and may i lost my mom, my relationship, even my puppy. by the time my disaster of a surgery came around, i was convinced that i needed to start playing the lotto – karma owed me big time.

at 11am yesterday, i got a phone call from my advisor. during the scheduling and assignment process the department had overlooked a half-TA float position; by 11:01am i went from being a half-funded TA panicking about how i was going to afford my remaining tuition and medical bills, to being a fully-funded TA with no tuition bill outside of a few hundred dollars of mandatory fees.

karma ponied up, to the tune of approximately $16,000 when you factor in the tuition i won’t be paying and the doubling of my stipend. plus, i get to keep my fellowship grant, which should completely pay off my surgery and PT costs.

if somebody offered to give me my old life back – my mom, k, my puppy, even a fully-functional knee – i would say yes in a heartbeat. i would pack my bags and move myself back up north if by some miracle i could get all of that back.

but i can’t. and that’s a reality that tugs at me every single day. i cannot have that life any more.

but this one is a damn good alternative.

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Author: jenn

impossible to define; indefinitely impossible. maybe i'll add more here later.

2 thoughts on “tides will change.

  1. I’m catching up on blogs, so I’m sorry I didn’t see/comment sooner but Jenn, this makes my heart sing. I’m so SO happy for you. I can’t think of a single soul who deserves this more. Congratulations love!

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