my mom died a year ago today. she died late at night, although we’re not sure exactly when because my dad was asleep and didn’t find her until she was already gone. the coroner’s TOD is listed as 11:00pm – that’s when they got there and declared her deceased.
i actually didn’t find out until the next morning, when my dad called.
a year ago this time, my mom was still alive. i had seen her on the 3rd, we hugged and cried a little bit as i left to go spend a few days in CT with k before flying back to lexington. we e-mailed back and forth a few times that day and the next two. the last e-mail i sent was around dinner time on the 5th. it’s said simply: “love you!!”
i don’t know if she ever got it, because within a few hours she was gone.
i have much more to say. i have something exciting to show everyone. but right now everything just feels mixed up and backwards and sad.