i should probably queue this and edit it later, because i have some serious post-long run brain fog and cannot guarantee that anything i type will be lucid. but we’ll give it a whirl. (EDIT: i got distracted and never finished this saturday night, so now it’s sunday morning and i’m going to go ahead and do that.)
generally speaking, i like to think i’m a pretty non-terrible person. i’m human and i have a million flaws, and i will also be the first to admit as much. i obsess. i panic easily. i avoid confrontation to the point of it being almost laughable. when my mind is being crazy i’ll withdraw into my own personal cocoon and not come out until i can see clearly again.
there’s a quote, “don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts, and don’t put up with those who are reckless with yours.”
i like to think that any good person (a) acknowledges their own flaws, and (b) is thus gracious about the flaws of others, because (c) we all want people to be gracious about our own faults, right?
my father, for instance, can be incredibly stubborn about a lot of things, but he is a gem when it comes to admitting he’s wrong. he has very little ego in that sense – when he’s wrong, he’ll admit it and apologize…and be done with it. and that’s a beautiful, rare quality in a human being: to be able to admit you’re wrong, swallow your pride and apologize, and then be able to simply walk away and not hang on.
being flawed is human; it’s the way things are. and you will ultimately, then, surround yourself with flawed human beings throughout your life. be gracious with their flaws, and don’t put up with those who are ingracious with yours. i am forever grateful for those people in my life who have stuck around, despite my flaws. for those who have been able to look beyond the nicks and scratches and see the beauty underneath. for those who understand that while i may not be the most outgoing and gregarious and conscientious person every moment, i genuinely have a good heart and am trying, every day, to become a better person.
this blog floats around the edges of a million topics. i don’t even know what to call this one. but take a moment today, be grateful for that person or those people in your life who see you, soup to nuts warts and all, and love you still. and be gracious. above all, be gracious.